Because I’m doing everything wrong!!!!!!!! I work out too much/not enough, I’m eating too much/not enough. Dear Lord. Can’t I just do what I like? What I enjoy? Even if I’m not losing weight, am I not living a healthy lifestyle? It really comes down to goals I guess. I have to keep telling myself my goal is holistic health, not to win a body building competition or fit into societies ideas of what “beautiful” is. I don’t want to live my life counting calories and weighing my food down to the last mouthful. I don’t want to eat a salad when everyone else gets the burger. I want to lift weights and feel good about that, and I want to walk and run and feel good about that. I want to feel good.
Ugh. I just need to tell that to myself 150 times a day.